Some thoughts

On Art:

I feel most vulnerable in the face of artistic expression. Society says that my opinion says more about me than about the art. If I think that something fails but society disagrees, that puts me on metaphorical trial because the peer pressure runs thick.

A first audience decides if the expression is acceptable or flawed and later generations slavishly allow this tradition to continue. Then the content creator looks at the conclusions that masses have drawn and says "I meant to do that."

On God:

We look for external coincidences to validate the way we already feel. The divine is the face that turns these coincidences up to 11 on days when we need them to be.

On Prophecy

I have to admit something -- over the last year or so, I have been conversing on a very personal level with God. Now maybe I'm just talking to myself and half the conversation is out loud while half is in my head, but it feels like God has been sending me messages.

Crazy, right? Yes, but convincing, if you ask me. Anyway, the content of the messages has been very private -- not the stuff I would announce, but it has inspired me to try to make positive changes in my life, and the conversations have been cathartic.

Last night, things got turned up by a lot. We were chatting, and then, bam, I start seeing and hearing things jump out at me. I saw significance in a selection of the words and phrases which I was hearing and seeing on TV. So now, I feel like I have info about the future but this is all very new to me; what am I supposed to do with this information. If I share it and I'm wrong then I'm a crank and wouldn't trust my own judgment going forward. If I share it and I'm right then everyone gets freaked out. If I don't share it and it is wrong then I don't trust myself and if I don't share it and I'm right, I have failed to help someone when I knew the future.

See how maddening this is? And where do I put my "predictions" (which aren't predictions, just a series of words and ideas in no particular order) so that I can prove to the world that they were made before the event in question? I could email them to myself, but someone would claim that I mailed it afterwards but found a way to make it look otherwise.

And is this even prophecy? I Judaism, prophecy is a mesage and a command to spread that message. I received no such command (yes, my craziness accepts rules) so I can keep this to myself and it isn't a prophecy. But it is still a burden.

Meanwhile, you will continue to assume I'm insane for even saying most of this. That's fine. You may be right...I may be crazy.

I guess we'll find out.